Heidi

Heidi Montag: Before

I think at some point over the past few years we all have either watched "The Hills" or seen it's cast members in magazines, online, etc... anyway most of us know who Heidi Montag is. This past Sunday night at church we had a ladies night and discussed different topics such as insucurities, beauty, how the world percieves women, and how God made us. Heidi was one of the topics that came up and how she has recently had 10 cosmetic procedures and how she now views herself as "perfect". I watch the show so I know what Heidi has looked like over the years but I looked at her "after" portraits this morning and watched this video and it made me sad. She was actually way cuter before and although she claims she thinks she is "perfect" now, all I see is a really sad girl in the video. I wonder why she thought she had to have all of that work done? Does she look in the mirror and see fat and ugly? Sometimes I do. I think we all do. Church was really good for me Sunday because although I think I am a cute girl at times, I do feel extremely insecure about my weight. I can't help but wonder... if I spent half the time I think about how I look and how people percieve me and spent that time with God... maybe I would feel a whole lot better about myself. I've tried not caring so much this week and not being so hard on myself and I actually feel good- I don't feel like let's say Jessica Alba in a swimsuit good... but I feel happier and content. There are a lot of things I would like to change about myself, but (and I may piss some people off here) I personally do not understand the whole "fake" look. Why would you want someone to look at you and say "oh.. she got her lips done"? I would want to look natural. I will be real honest here and share a personal experience with you- in 2004 I had a breast reduction done. I was a DD and now I am a C. I feel healthier and do not regret my decision to have that procedure. I don't want anyone to get the wrong idea and think I am completely against cosmetic surgeries. I just think a lot of people are quick to jump under the knife, needles, ect. before really thinking things through and seeing themselves for how beautiful they really are- how God made them.... and maybe just maybe Heidi Montag did not have anyone to tell her how beautiful she is no matter what her reputation is or what people say on the internet. Maybe Heidi Montag needed someone to say a prayer for her. Not trying to get all holy roller on you- BUT... pray for your friends, that they feel pretty and feel good about themselves. It's a harsh world out there telling us, our sisters, our daughters, our mothers, our friends.... what they percieve as perfect.. and it's wrong. You never know what someone is thinking in their head or what they see in the mirror.

Love, E

Heidi Montag: After